The last day, finally

Happy 31st to you all:) Have a great one to end this awesome 2010!

I bet 2011 will be so much better. I've got nothing to blog about actually because i've blogged about it sometime ago. Still, i thank all of you people out there reading this post for making my 2010 a good one. I got to admit i feel so drifted from my friends because my life seems to revolve around bf and volleyballers recently. Im losing some of you already. Some with personal reasons.

As i was taking the bus home just now, i suddenly feel that i dont have an aim in life. I dont know what i want to be in future, i dont know what i want in my life, i dont know how to deal with things in the correct way. Feel like a failure, im really jealous of people who knows exactly what they want. Im moving towards nothing and im already 17 going 18. Sounds bad?

New year, i hope for something new. I need to figure out what i want. There are so much thing i couldnt change about myself, no matter how hard i try. Sometimes i wish i can jump back into my mum's womb and give birth to a whole new me all over again just like how my mum did 17years ago. But it will never happen cus i cant turn back time.

I hope 2011 will be better to deal with. I dont want to get stuck in between choices that i suck at deciding. I always wish i could stop disappointing people with the choices i make, but everytime single time i screwed it up. You know the feeling? I've disappointed soooooooooooo many people and im really tired of that. Its like every step i take, there will always be someone who will get hurt by the choice i made. So i hope 2011 i will stop making such mistakes.

I guess im ready to face 2011 with a new mindset that things will be better. I hope you all are too! To end this, have an awesome last day of 2010 and end it with a blast cus you wont get another 2010 again, and leave all the bad memories and keep the good ones with you. 2010 had been great and awesome, but 2011 will be even better!

Let's welcome 2011!