Reflection maybe?

As i was on my way back home today, so much things and matters went through my mind. Friends, people around me. The reason why i cried on my birthday was pretty simple, after so long of feeling empty inside, there are actually others out there who is sharing my joy with me. Like i know there are people out there who still cares.

Then again, i realised, i haven really been hanging out with them. And i thought maybe i really prefer being on my own at this period of time(for idk what reason), i just feel like isolating myself away from people i know. Like we are born alone, so maybe its not a bad decision to want to remain alone. Idk if people reading this will get it. But for some reason, i really dislike socialising, even with my closest friends.

All i want to do now at this very period is just the boring routine of waking up for school>staying in schoool>go home/stay in school to study/rot that kind of thing. So, first, im sorry to all my friends/people im close to(especially Felicia ong, for rejecting all the plans). I think i really need to use this break to know myself better, to calm myself down, think about what really went wrong these 2months. I will be back real soon, maybe a happier me?